another year has pass ... another year that i have been living in HIS embrace ~ looking back year 2007 ... it's a awesome year ... despite faced wif many challenges, emotional ups n downs, HIS love has never ceased even a second of my life ~ HE has never left me out of HIS sight ... i confessed that most of the times i'm the one who ventilate myself in this bubble of mine ~ away from God ~ during this time, being in my 'leave me alone' situation, i felt very strongly HIS unfailing love picking me from the shattered pieces of emotions ... n constant reminders that HE's by my side ...
at times i find that i want alot of God n at times i will just shun away from HIM ... it's been much of struggle sometimes to keep things at a constant degree / to be at a balance ... i find myself always gripping n balancing myself wif a balancing pole n not to fall off to the ground ...
i was walking alone in singapore - trying to take a breather from episodes n events from 2007 ... God has spoke to me on n on as i read my bible ... HE's there to clear the questions that has been circling in my head all thruout (my self evaluation time wif GOD) ... i was sitting down in Raffles Place (waiting for my friend for dinner) ~ borrowing the light fr the nearby lamp and began to flip the pages of my bible .. i believed these r the answers to the questions that have resurface on n off looking back at the entire 2007 n this is where i wanna start building myself again from where i left it and from what God wants me to do ... i dun wanna act on my desires anymore .. but for God to act on it ... n for HIS will from HIM to be done thru me ...
I believe year 2008 is gonna be a year that I wanna make changes to myself for God (i wanna experience Him as much as i can in 2008, it may sound crazy for those reading this blog ~ but, i wanna tell u, HE is an awesome GOD, n i believe that it's gonna be a wonderful walk if u walk closely wif HIM - u muz really experience HIM) ... i believe this is the season where i need to take a step out leaving my comfort zone to see more of GOD and to shake myself out to the reality of my walk wif GOD ... i believe that 2008 is a challenging year ... n i'm walking this year 2008 by faith ~ as i do not know wat lies ahead of me ... but, i believe that this will be the walk guided by HIM ... you'll never fall ...
many things came to my head as i was planning to make all these changes ... it's so difficult to make decisions especially when u have brothers n sisters that cared for you so much ~ but, i guess i hav move out n to prioritise my time so that i can reach out ... the decision of spending less time is considered to be very difficult for me ... God spoke to me ... i felt that HE wants me to reach out to people n HE also allow me to see clearly wat i'm doing now ... being stagnant and comfortably stuck at one place ... a thought that came in very clear was "y r u standing there n looking at these people .. they r sad and lost ... can't you see all these people r all still in darkness...wat r u doing? " the words juz cut me thru n thru ... then God has confirmed all these in Roman 15:14~21 ... i felt HIS heart crying out for these lost souls n it's our duties here on earth to share HIS words and wonders that HE had come thru for us ...
Those who have never been told about him will see,
and those who have never heard of him will understand.
Romans 15:21
For the Son of Man came to seek and save those who are lost.
Luke 19:10
1 Corinthians 3:8~9
